Wednesday, April 25, 2007

T minus three days

I am currently on hold with telus and there is no music, no automated voice thanking me for waiting, nothing. It's a little disconcerting.

Last night I watched the Gilmore Girls. I don't watch it regularly, but I have a pretty good idea of what is going on. Anyways - last night's episode really spoke to me. On three levels in fact. On the Rory level, the Paris level and the Lorelei (sp?) level - which is pretty close to be all the levels.

Today is more packing. pack pack pack. This morning I had coffee with my friend Steph. She is leaving today for Vancouver. I gave her all the liquour I had in my house. Which was a lot - a lot because I rarely drink and people have given me liquour as gifts - not because I drink a lot so I have a lot :)

still on hold. still silent. still disconcerted.

Monday, April 23, 2007


Today my bank account grew by $150. This is because I returned a $80 pair of pants and a $70 shirt. I realize that I should probably try to focus on buying things I need and can afford. Oh well... no one is perfect.

Today I finally put all my art postcards from NY (and a few others) in my art postcard book. It's been a year and I finally got around to it. What I should have gotten around to today was furthering my packing (note the sound of me hyperventaliating).

Tonight I was reading "the things I know" blog (which is my favourite blog of those linked by members of Devin's family) and I realized that right now I suddenly don't feel compelled to know anything. I mean, I know the things I know, and there are lots of things I don't know. And for the last couple weeks, I haven't been that worried about the things I don't. It's a nice change.

Monday, April 16, 2007

last little while

who wears short shorts? me apparently. not on purpose I assure you.

I love martinis.

last weeks I drank three nights in row (note: not like in college - I just had one-two drinks - but still - this is highly irregular for me)

dulche de leche (sp?) = yum. However only in tall. grande is too much.

packing = fear

spending summer living with parents without a place of my own = potential nervous breakdown. I love my parents and we get along super well. but the summer? and maybe beyond? I have been home for the summer before. But man. man!!

I heart Iris Murdoch.

I am going to buy Craig Ferguson's book for my plane ride and sojurn in Calgary.

I love having flowers in my apartment. And I am sad to be leaving my apartment.

I giggle too much and at inappropriate times.

A few days ago I woke up from a dream, laughing, I was laughing so much in my dream I woke myself up. I only wish I remember what it was about.

I have had one flying dream in my life. I (irrationaly) envy those who have flying dreams.

Grotty is a word.

Sleep makes me happy.

Children of men is a good movie. But it wasn't fabulous. I am considering reading the book.

Today it was not nice weather wise. That made me sad. It has been super nice these past couple of days. Please come back sun. Please come back.


I just saw the last 30 seconds of degrassi the next generation. I have not watched it since before christmas. And wow. Alex and Paige? for real? love? what is going on? why did I stop watching what might be the greatest show ever on canadian tv?! (street legal excluded).


okay. seriously.


Saturday, April 14, 2007

high school

bubble gum and house parties when you stole your parents rum
and tried to screw everything that could breathe
back in high school we didnt have a whole lot to do
we watched the world go by on the television screen
said it's the 90's kids thats way out this is way in
go beat eachother up on the dance floor
told us drugs were no good
but then we smoked 'em and liked 'em
so much that we smoked a little more
we liked 'em so much that we smoked a little more

then i call your name
did you hear me singin' that song that i wrote for you?
your so the same but your so different
i didn't recognize you

it's kinda hard with all that sexual confussion
sometimes you don't know if your gay or straight
but whats the difference its a wonderful illusion
most times you won't make it past second base
I'm in a band we kinda suck but we don't now it yet
and i don't care anyway
cuz soon i'm gonna sell these drums, pay my rent,
support my kid and tell him all about way back in daddy's day
i'll tell him all about way back in daddy's day


some years later by a soda coolerator
in a corner store back in my home town
this stranger smiles at me, said
"remember the class of '93?"
and for some reason it makes him look real proud
after all the good times he said we had
he looks at me, scratches his head
and asked me where the hell i have went
and the funny thing is that i never even knew him
but he coulda been any one of my high school friends

Chorus (x2)

Monday, April 09, 2007


All I want is a room somewhere,
Far away from the cold night air.
With one enormous chair,
Aow, wouldn't it be loverly?

Lots of choc'lates for me to eat,
Lots of coal makin' lots of 'eat.
Warm face, warm 'ands, warm feet,
Aow, wouldn't it be loverly?

Aow, so loverly sittin' abso-bloomin'-lutely still.
I would never budge 'till spring
Crept over me windowsill.

Someone's 'ead restin' on my knee,
Warm an' tender as 'e can be. 'ho takes good care of me,
Aow, wouldn't it be loverly?
Loverly, loverly, loverly, loverly

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Quote of the Day

Martin Sheen: I don't believe we go to heaven, I believe we become heaven.

I love this.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

life in victoria

victoria is a special city. very different from any other city in which I lived. why is Victoria different you ask?

1) spring in victoria brings with a certain smell. not the beautiful smell of flowers and blossoms. but the pugent smell of the manure that Victorians use to fertilize their lawns.
2) today while I as at the gym I glanced over next to me and saw a charming older man. I noticed him several moments later as he pushed his walker from one weight-machine to another. this is why I love my gym. it's the type of place where a man with a walker can go work out and feel comfortable.
3) when you want a shirt from espirt that they no longer have in your size - you have to leave the island to find it. unlike a CITY where you could simply go to another store that had different stock and pick up the shirt which you desired. here I have no recourse and will have to go through life without that shirt.

the weather, however, is fabulous!

Tuesday, April 03, 2007


what do you do when someone sends you a piece of paper that gives you an opportunity to realize your ultimate life goal - three weeks after you decided you no longer had an ultimate life goal. It helps if that piece of paper also suggests that your ultimate life goal will cost $200,000CAD. It's what I wanted for so long. I don't want to give it up. I know that I should. I know that giving it up will make me happier in the long run. But damn will it be hard.