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Today I felt really old.

I was sitting in front of my tutorial looking at all the little people (okay 18year olds) and thinking about all the hope, potential, life, that they have in front of them which is already behind me. All of my undergrad, all those nights of drinking and dancing, the random hookups, the learning about boys and girls, learning about what inspires them, what their passions are.... I realize the obvious - that I am 22 and it's not like i'm knocking on death's door with never another adventure ahead of me - but the clock is ticking... it makes you think - when i'm 25, 28, 32 what can I do now that i will look back and be like "yes. that's good. good for me for making those choices"

so valentines day. all the other blogs that i read have written about valentines - so let's see if i have any thoughts.... If I wasn't in love I think that I would just treat this day like any other day... and since I am in love.... I'm okay with today being like any other day. Sadly I don't get to go to sleep with D. but I got to wake up next to him so I'm okay with that. I mean - I could be Paula Abdul and go on Dr. Phil and talk to him about the problems in my love life - however - I have no problems - and with any luck (though i might have love life problems in the future) I will be able to pull my life together enough to work through my own love-life crisises - or else admit I have a problem and enter real therapy.

Okay - now t.v. is distracting me so I will sign off and think more about such things later.