life.

what do you do when someone sends you a piece of paper that gives you an opportunity to realize your ultimate life goal - three weeks after you decided you no longer had an ultimate life goal. It helps if that piece of paper also suggests that your ultimate life goal will cost $200,000CAD. It's what I wanted for so long. I don't want to give it up. I know that I should. I know that giving it up will make me happier in the long run. But damn will it be hard.