maze.

I feel trapped.

I don't know what I am trapped in, but for the purposes of this second-rate metaphor lets say a maze.

I feel trapped in a maze and everytime I think I can see the end I'm right up against another wall again. And part of me wants to give up and leave the maze completely. But there is comfort in the maze, because at lease I know I am in a maze.

And part of me wants to simplify. To go from difficulty level 6 back down to difficultly level 4. But I don't want to make it easier just b/c I don't like doing what is hard - but I don't want to keep doing what is hard for the sake of doing it.